Yesterday is heavy. Put it down.

Out of all of the quotes, mantras, uplifting notes and suggestions regarding the grieving process, this one is the simplest and seems to resonate with me.  It encompasses many of the other mantras (you can't change the past, it is what it is, you have to move on.... etc) but does it very succinctly and simply.

I don't know if I will ever get over the loss of Andrew, but we are doing our best to continue to live our lives.  I have a feeling that his death has changed me in a way that I don't fully understand yet.  I get the feeling that I am not the same person I was before May 15.  I was never patient at the best of times, but I find myself frustrated by people around me and I can get easily agitated over simple things.  I am trying to curb this.  I also feel lost.  I will pace around the house doing minor housework but mainly just killing time as I don't know what to do with myself.  Cheryl seems to be able to wrap herself in books, audiobooks, knitting, bonfires etc., but I don't seem to be able to focus on one thing for very long.  I am hoping this is temporary.