I have always heard the adage about the connection between mind, body and soul, and it makes sense. I had just never had the opportunity to see it in action.
Over the past couple of years, while I was dealing with Andrew's death, my own increased drinking, battling depression, feeling unfulfilled at work, having difficulty figuring out how best to be there for the kids, while still attempting to figure my own life out, I had to deal with all 3 components. Mind. Body. Soul
My soul was the easiest to tackle as I believe I have a truly empathetic soul with a genuine desire to help people and to "level up". It did not take long to get my soul back into alignment as this involved mainly a bit of a reminder of where I come from, what my values are and where I want to be. This, in essence, is the crux of being fucking fantastic. Having a strong core and self-confidence in collaboration with years of experience and wisdom. This was just a basic re-alignment.
My Body took longer, but over the past couple of years, and with a good kick in the ass from my liver and stomach, my body is now working quite well all things considered. I really believe this is due, in part, to my overall energy level and sticking with running over the years, even as other aspects of my life went askew. I am now at my healthiest weight yet, my liver numbers have stabilized, I start each day with a smoothie and try to eat healthy and haven't had a drink since September 15, 2020. I think I am on the right path here. I won't always be perfect, but even with a few vices here and there, I think I will be ok.
My mind. This one has been trickier than I expected. Having never been really sick before, I was unprepared for the mindfuck that accompanied the body issues. While my body healed very quickly, my mind is taking longer to recover. Often, it seems like I am revisiting aspects of my life to ensure that I am still remembering things accurately, while other times it seems like I have leveled up to a more comprehensive way of thinking. It is a blessing and a curse to be an intelligent person going through "mind" issues. I have always relied on my mind, and it is very disconcerting to second-guess myself. I am hopeful that this is part of the healing process and will be temporary.
It is hugely important for me to feel in control of my mind.
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