Deep Thoughts or Rambling Babble from a rusty thespian

As I approach my 6th decade, as Doug MacDonald would put it, I am struck by how little control we have over the life we lead.  We make decisions based on irrelevant criteria and then justify our actions accordingly depending on the outcome of our decisions.  In the end, we could save a lot of time and heartache by accepting that most things are going to occur or not occur regardless of our influence or interference.  Unfortunately, once you realize this is the case you are actively trying to influence the  subject and are still trying to control the situation.  This is human nature and exists in all kinds of disciplines.  The idea of being in the moment, but when you actually think about being in the moment, you step out of the moment.  Therefore you have to just exist in the moment without trying to control it.  

Let me know if you figure out how to do this on a regular basis.  I find the moments where I am best able to just relax are when I am best able to sit back and enjoy the moment while simultaneously being part of the moment.  Usually the deepest feelings here involve music, theatre, family, guitar, water, beaches, calming music.  I am then able to reflect deeper on the simple pleasures and the deep-rooted support and love that surrounds me.  

Sometimes I feel my role is that of writer or scribe now that I am both old enough to have experience, but young enough to still want to make a difference.  

I can't help but think that there is something deeper at play here with my involvement in Lorne Elliott's play.  It has reignited my creative side and reminded me how unique my skillset is in the world around me.  Perhaps I should play into that more.