OG Tim

While I love Tim 2.0 and could not imagine living my life any other way, there is one niggling little trait from OG Tim that I miss.  I find I overthink things too much lately.  I always did, but there was a light-heartedness about it that felt mild.  The idea that it is good to plan, but to understand that if was ok if things didn't go the way you expected.  My motives were usually true, so I didn't get bogged down in the semantics of whether I should dwell on things any deeper. 

Lately, though, there seems to be a bit of an edge to my overthinking.  I worry and stress more than I used to, sometimes about issues that are not that important. 

I miss carefree, fun, unfiltered Tim sometimes.  When I were doing something mildly off-color or even more serious mis-steps, I could brush them off relatively easily. 

Now, though, I did in deeper than I used to on things.  Perhaps this is triggering because of Andrew's death and the thought that perhaps we could have done more, even though I know logically this is not the case.

Either way, the lesson for today is that the less I overthink and dwell on anything other than the present, the better my life becomes and this trickles down to those around me who can feed off my energy.