Thought Vomit

Some Random Thoughts I have had that I have been meaning to post here.

• Story idea -  the search to find the one out of 7 billion people on earth who is THE ONE in the ranking order kind of like squid games but more global incorporating the idea of 100 monkeys typing on 100 computers typewriters would eventually produce the works of William Shakespeare if volume people plugging away forget to different levels and it took takes a certain number of people to hit a certain level and we're nearing that completion now saying that 10 billion people range and when we hit that supposedly somebody the one say it would make sense if it was someone who was born now that's alive to maximize interest in the story if the person was alive in the present moment.  Could narrow things down or keep vague.
• I used to have the confidence to act first quickly and then think later while now I strive to have the wisdom and experience to think first and speak later.
• (Play related) I need to heavily document this next four weeks of my life it could be possibly the most creative I have ever been and I think it's something that I will look back on and we'll try and reexamine my feelings and my thoughts through this journey as it is so extraordinary unbelievable and I such strange twists and turns opportunity for a play here for a short story possibly one of my own doing a man is trapped between veteran government for lack of a better term the pot Between Two Worlds to try and to decide where he fits best
• Acting is a very strange profession where you fake being confident and have to be very good at it
• Weird thought about religion if there is a higher power who created us bad intelligent and that's smart that they're able to create us to create us then why would they need blind obedience to a strict protocol 
• There is no future just the Eternal present. Grooving with the Eternal now. Grooving in the Eternal now
• The idea that you have to put aside what you love to be good at to get ahead when getting ahead is to get to what you love.
• There is an expectation to always be available or productive.  U.RGENCY CULTURE
• I think somewhere after Andrew was born and between University and becoming parents I settled in on who are should be rather than who I am and started trying to become a better person family which is all well and good but the reality is that it's not truly who I am and I am now currently discovering who I am without having the parameters of trying to be a mentor and a role model for others pressure dog pressure aside and just focus on me.  Hopefully the result will inadvertently teach the kids to strive for who you are rather than who anyone expects you to be.  This generation seems to have a good grasp on this, but I grew up taught to try to fit in and blend in.