Friday, April 21, 2023

Finding my groove at 50

This is another liminal point post.  As I sit here typing, we are 6 days away from our dream trip to Italy.  I am in a real sweet spot right now.  I know that my world is about to expand and I can't wait.  I am beyond excited.  

Reading back over some of the posts, this has been an amazing journey so far.  The good, the bad, the ugly.  I am just happy to be here in good health mentally and physically and in a great place with Cheryl so that we can fully embrace this part of our journey.  

I am very lucky to be in the  place that I am right now where my kids want to come home and see me and they are both now hitting their stride again after a long few years.  They are both growing on their own journeys but still take the time to check in and reach out.  

So many people that I know don't have their kids in their lives and my kids are such a great support to me and knowing that they want to come home and are happy to be here and sharing I don't think I fully grasp how unique and how good this is at this particular moment in my life.  Something I didn't know how much I needed.   

One of the incorrect things that I learned from Mom is that showing vulnerability is a sign of weakness and is a tactical error, whereas the opposite is true.  Showing vulnerability makes a person relatable and allows for stronger connections to be made.  I am not sure if Mom knew that or not, but I am not following that path.   

My relationship with Cheryl has grown exponentially over the past few years as I was forced to become vulnerable.  If I'm being honest, my own pre-conceived ideas about relationships probably caused some of the bottleneck in our relationship along the way.  But, again, if I am being honest, now that we have come through so much I don't think I know anyone with a better relationship than ours.


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